| I never thought I woudl ressurect this. But in a time of dire emotional distress I need somewhere to vent. This may become locked as I decide I don't want this emotion or rant out there. I am an asshole of epic proportions. I am the king of dicks. I have done what the scum of the earth will not consider doing. and in the process I have lost the thing that matters more than anything else in my life. I can't even imagine what would happen to me if I didn't have this time to reflect on...These three months...I imagine this is temporary...but im sure that is mostly imagination. The best time of my life perhaps has come to an end...I wish it hadn't and I wish there was a was I could fix all the problems I have caused. I need something to help me...beer/drugs...just numb the pain but don't provide me a solution. I guess all I can really say is that I am glad for the time I was given with you kate...if this is the end I love you I really do. I hurt you I know I did. Nothing I have done was with intent of harm and nothing I have done hurts more than losing you to my own fault. I can only imagine how you must feel. |
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| 1/3 of the way done means that were 1/3 of the way further than I want time to be. I wish we had forever in just the way things are never aging just going through senior year again with all you guys...it would be perfect if we could live in senior year forever. |
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| She says we've only got to months to live...
...too bad i'm gonna find a way to fight it |
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| I'm up at the RIT...nice place it is up here. I like it alot i'm glad I
made this choice. So yea I'll be home like 10 tonight...I'll see you
guys later.
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| Got the new car so now im set with a good life..haha..Things are perfect...and I get to go up to RIT on thursday alright!
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